Rain down on me, here in Your presence I am free

This sucks. At the moment it looks like Jon and I aren't gonna be college mates because he might only do his SAT in May and enroll later than my January. It has such a dampening effect when he said "go to college without me." I don't know why but it just did. So anyway, if you do happen to see him in person or online, just give him a hug and a smile, all right? He's quite down about it.

Today I went for my 5 hours of undang kereta. It was conducted all in Malay by Encik Zul. He was funny, informational, efficient, and direct. Today I realized how awesome my understanding of the Malay language is. I completely understood everything - my level of understanding would have been the same had it been conducted in English. I'm glad about that. It's a good thing I think in Malay sometimes. Orang rakyat Malaysia mestilah tahu cakap Bahasa Melayu kan? Overall it was fun, except for the sitting part when after a half hour my butt bone could feel the chair and it got numb. As I mentioned before, I am capable of standing for hours but cannot bear sitting for more than thirty minutes. Haha. I met a Filipino-Chinese girl by the name of Silverlora. Isn't that such a cool name? Lol. The past few days have been long and packed, and I'm dead tired but happy.

Yesterday was awesome, literally. I attended the evening service at Mustard Seed for the first time. The worship session there is wonderfully different; there was synergy and a little (or rather, big) something that was just distinctly raised to another level and I could really, and I mean really, worship God like I haven't done in a long time. I felt IT. I like and agree with the way aunt Lillian defined and explained worship leading yesterday. She said, a worship leader ushers people into God's presence. A worship leader is a visionary who leads a group, leads prophetically, and waits on God for songs. Even though I was sleepy because I hadn't been resting enough, I felt renewed and refreshed inside. It is such an indescribably good feeling. Also, I would like to say that the Jesudasan family - uncle Kevin, aunt Lillian, Josh, Bernice and Eunice - have been such a blessing and have taught me much. After service I went for dinner with them, Pastor Nicholas, Pastor Julian, Ms Cath, my bro Jaedon, Brenda, Brandon, Weeyen, a few others and Hosanna whom I just met. Talking to them all was great.

I think Ms. Cath took like 300 over photos on Awards Night, many of which she still hasn't uploaded, I think. LOLTHESCANDALOUSONESOMGTHEMEMORIESMSCATHWEDOWHATEVERNOWTOMAKEYOUHAPPYLA. Lol hope you can decipher that.

This picture makes me laugh. We all look so... so... hahahahahhahaha. I like this. From left to right is Josh, me, Tommy, Calvin. This shot was the successful one after the first few failed because SOME PEOPLE *Tommy la who else* was being funny and kept ducking. Haha.

And this would be me, my mommy and Weeyen. I was looking in another direction because there were a few cameras. Haha.

I have so many "dates" with so many people, everybody should just come to my house. NOW THAT'S A BRILLIANT IDEA! Sometimes I just want that cosy homey time because frequenting malls can get tiresome, you know? And I think I've been spending a little too much. OH did I mention that I went job hunting on Thursday? Subway is offering weekend jobs. That's a good idea because I might be able to go on with it even during college next year. There were also a few others but personally I've always thought making sandwiches at Subway is cool. NO lah don't think I'm being unambitious and want to make sandwiches untuk sepanjang hayat saya lah. Hahaha. Anyway, Twilight is showing on Astro for the first time on channel 413 in 5 minutes and I'm going to watch it with my brother. Have an awesome pawsome week. I love you!

For You I will

I've everything and nothing to say. But then Joel demands an update. All I can say is wow. We've graduated. I've graduated. High school is officially over and the new phase of college is soon beginning. The "facts of graduation" still haven't fully sunk in yet; I think I'd need a couple more days to really take that in. I'm filled with a mixture of awe, sadness, joy, anticipation - the blend of these and more feelings are neither easily nor pleasantly nor badly experienced. Pretty indescribable, I'd say.

Last night was probably one of my best awards nights out of all my previous ones. I'm weird in the sense that I'm not nervous when speaking in front of large crowds, but freak out (like this morning when we grads had to say something) in front of smaller crowds of people I'm familiar with. Oh well.

AND not forgetting to mention, Tommy came last night! Ahaha. He's grown a lot taller since the last time I saw him. So lengzhai some more. Haha. I'll try to attend your anni night okay? Wanna see you sing.

Aaren really syok sendiri today. I was mopping after party day and he was typing in his number to my phone and I left it with him. Then HE texted this from MY phone to HIS phone: "Hey Aaren thx 4 being such a great person. Im glad i got to know you. Pls text me whenever you can k. Take care handsome." Betul syok sendiri, kan? Lol.

I'm really tired at the moment. I think I'm losing my voice. Hope I don't. Love you all heaps! ♥

70%, I guess

I've been around and not in the blogger-ish mood. But then my number one blog stalker demands for an update and I'm doing it now just because he's so awesome. Awards night is on Thursday and I know this week is gonna be a crazy fun and busy one. Haz, you're doing a smashingly awesome job on the backdrop. Don't stress okay? Love you! ;)

New Moon is out this Friday and I should be going to watch it next week when I'm free. YAY!

You know when I was eight, all this finishing up/graduation was such a distant thing in my little world. I can't believe it's really going to take place soon. Even though I'm now a free person, having completed all my Lifepacs, I still have emcee syncing to do, which is probably quite fun. Did you know that freedom actually takes one getting accustomed to? I feel so odd not having schoolwork to do. Who knew.

Next week I'm going to look for a job, get my driving license done and play hard. Haha. I can't write properly now because I'm feeling disoriented over something. I need a conference with some people tomorrow. Speculators do give the greatest advice. =D

I've been in malls the whole of the past two days and I don't want to set foot in another for the week. Haha. Okay, maybe I shouldn't speak too soon. I feel something totally awesome coming along. I don't know what it is, but I just feel it, and it's one helluva good feeling. ;)

Two is better than one

I can't stop listening to that song. Tommy said he cried when he heard it. Never knew he could be so emotional. Haha.

Anyway, this entry is to declare that

MY SAT IS THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW

(07/11/09)!!!

Rawr. I've to be at Metropolitan College by 7.45am. Su-Ann and I will probably be in the same hall because Joy says they divide us by last names or something. I'm thinking our hall should have a lot of Tans. Haha. We can do a victory dance in the carpark at 12.45pm lol.

This would be the second day I've spent at home and I miss school. Next week I have to finish my final Science Lifepac, help get things done for Movie Night, be a good girl and not fall asleep at choir practice, and think up outta-this-world lines for my emcee-ing with Neilsen.

OH and I have to say that Fer is my insanely sexayy brotha' from another motha'. Haha.

하나보다는 두 개가 더있습니다. This, by the way, is "two is better than one" in Korean. After all my studying is done for this year, I want to watch Boys Over Flowers and cry all over again. SS501's Because I'm Stupid is actually capable of making me tear. 

xx

You're so hot that I melted

Love that phrase. In the previous post, I forgot to mention something I think is very important. I forgot to share about the major lesson I learned this week - that I don't have to prove a point to someone which I know I'm already right about. I mean, WHAT IS there to prove? It hurts only myself and anybody else involved. So bumbum la okay. I forgive whoever "caused" me to have to prove the point, though. The person was merely speculating and sharing his observations and I do believe he would make a great life coach (as he wants to be) if he goes in the right direction.

I have such perasan friends. Isaac texted today and he was like, "Eh I think I'm very handsome la. Don't you think so?  " He has asked that question so many times, I don't know what to say anymore but tell him he is. Dang, you make me lie.

The Man Utd players need a good, well-deserved rest. I really think that Alex Ferguson has added a few more wrinkles and lost a few hairs, what with all the things to do. I respect the man.

Also, Berbatov has improved.

*pics from Blackburn match*

I actually don't feel too bad about missing the Halloween party at the Chongs. When I told Sean I couldn't make it, I thought I'd feel quite deprived on the night. And furthermore, Ian was sick. We also planned a sleepover/laugh-till-we-hurt-session/late-night-talk after that because we haven't spent time together in ages, but then I thought better of it and decided I should stay focused on work. Sensible-nya! *halo appears above head and heavenly music plays* This week I am going hardcore with my SAT practice tests. How wonderful. I'm in the 1800-1900s. By the way, I think my brother spends wayy too much time on Facebook playing Uno and Pet Society and Typing Maniac and hacking them. Somebody, anybody, do something!

Yes people, after my SAT I will go anywhere (well, almost anywhere) with you, especially to those I owe or ffk-ed. I think Su-Ann is at the top of my ffk list. Heh. And FYI to some PJ people, KL is so not far away. I like The Gardens and GSC Signature because it's still clean and wide. I like KLCC because there are fascinating metro/homo/trans sexual dudes to see. Okay, sorry, I'm just kidding about the latter. All people are beautiful and special in God's eyes. They and people around them only have to realize and embrace it. Oh but don't get me wrong, I'm not condoning homosexuality either.

It's been drizzling and raining almost continuously. The basketball court down the street is full of puddles; the futsal courts are stained with slippery rain marks. I salute our security guards for sitting out like that through rain or shine. At the moment some blokes somewhere are burning some garbage-smelling thing and polluting the previously fresh and chilly air. Sigh. Some people. And as we Chinese say, "We no eyes see."

This year-end I have decided to do something different. I won't be attending any camps this year, as I have almost every year of my life. I want to do something different. Maybe go on a mission trip, volunteer in some community services, visit the SPCA, go on a roadtrip with buddies like the one during CNY two years ago, do some photography and attend workshops, appreciate nature and spend time with the family by a river somewhere, go hiking and just stand in amusement at the sounds of cicadas; play badminton, futsal and golf; get involved in youth political discussions/meetings available, read up on psychology and literature, attend an overnight prayer meeting at church, attend a court session and a Parliament session, visit the Tugu Negara again, go to Cambodia, go to the park and people-spot or play frisbee with my brother, write a few substantial pieces, get involved in Street Ministry again, get my driving lessons/licence done... The list is endless.

Learning is a lifelong journey, and it goes far beyond the confines of our four walls of church and school. They are where we learn and are taught, and the world is our training and application ground. We must have consistency and discipline to keep up with our Christian growth and not stray when we are outside of those four walls. Thanks Ms. Cath for the thought.

Thank you Jesus. You are good. This week will be an enjoyable and fruitful one.

Love you all. And in the meantime, behave.

xx