For You I will

I've everything and nothing to say. But then Joel demands an update. All I can say is wow. We've graduated. I've graduated. High school is officially over and the new phase of college is soon beginning. The "facts of graduation" still haven't fully sunk in yet; I think I'd need a couple more days to really take that in. I'm filled with a mixture of awe, sadness, joy, anticipation - the blend of these and more feelings are neither easily nor pleasantly nor badly experienced. Pretty indescribable, I'd say.

Last night was probably one of my best awards nights out of all my previous ones. I'm weird in the sense that I'm not nervous when speaking in front of large crowds, but freak out (like this morning when we grads had to say something) in front of smaller crowds of people I'm familiar with. Oh well.

AND not forgetting to mention, Tommy came last night! Ahaha. He's grown a lot taller since the last time I saw him. So lengzhai some more. Haha. I'll try to attend your anni night okay? Wanna see you sing.

Aaren really syok sendiri today. I was mopping after party day and he was typing in his number to my phone and I left it with him. Then HE texted this from MY phone to HIS phone: "Hey Aaren thx 4 being such a great person. Im glad i got to know you. Pls text me whenever you can k. Take care handsome." Betul syok sendiri, kan? Lol.

I'm really tired at the moment. I think I'm losing my voice. Hope I don't. Love you all heaps! ♥

70%, I guess

I've been around and not in the blogger-ish mood. But then my number one blog stalker demands for an update and I'm doing it now just because he's so awesome. Awards night is on Thursday and I know this week is gonna be a crazy fun and busy one. Haz, you're doing a smashingly awesome job on the backdrop. Don't stress okay? Love you! ;)

New Moon is out this Friday and I should be going to watch it next week when I'm free. YAY!

You know when I was eight, all this finishing up/graduation was such a distant thing in my little world. I can't believe it's really going to take place soon. Even though I'm now a free person, having completed all my Lifepacs, I still have emcee syncing to do, which is probably quite fun. Did you know that freedom actually takes one getting accustomed to? I feel so odd not having schoolwork to do. Who knew.

Next week I'm going to look for a job, get my driving license done and play hard. Haha. I can't write properly now because I'm feeling disoriented over something. I need a conference with some people tomorrow. Speculators do give the greatest advice. =D

I've been in malls the whole of the past two days and I don't want to set foot in another for the week. Haha. Okay, maybe I shouldn't speak too soon. I feel something totally awesome coming along. I don't know what it is, but I just feel it, and it's one helluva good feeling. ;)

Two is better than one

I can't stop listening to that song. Tommy said he cried when he heard it. Never knew he could be so emotional. Haha.

Anyway, this entry is to declare that

MY SAT IS THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW

(07/11/09)!!!

Rawr. I've to be at Metropolitan College by 7.45am. Su-Ann and I will probably be in the same hall because Joy says they divide us by last names or something. I'm thinking our hall should have a lot of Tans. Haha. We can do a victory dance in the carpark at 12.45pm lol.

This would be the second day I've spent at home and I miss school. Next week I have to finish my final Science Lifepac, help get things done for Movie Night, be a good girl and not fall asleep at choir practice, and think up outta-this-world lines for my emcee-ing with Neilsen.

OH and I have to say that Fer is my insanely sexayy brotha' from another motha'. Haha.

하나보다는 두 개가 더있습니다. This, by the way, is "two is better than one" in Korean. After all my studying is done for this year, I want to watch Boys Over Flowers and cry all over again. SS501's Because I'm Stupid is actually capable of making me tear. 

xx

You're so hot that I melted

Love that phrase. In the previous post, I forgot to mention something I think is very important. I forgot to share about the major lesson I learned this week - that I don't have to prove a point to someone which I know I'm already right about. I mean, WHAT IS there to prove? It hurts only myself and anybody else involved. So bumbum la okay. I forgive whoever "caused" me to have to prove the point, though. The person was merely speculating and sharing his observations and I do believe he would make a great life coach (as he wants to be) if he goes in the right direction.

I have such perasan friends. Isaac texted today and he was like, "Eh I think I'm very handsome la. Don't you think so?  " He has asked that question so many times, I don't know what to say anymore but tell him he is. Dang, you make me lie.

The Man Utd players need a good, well-deserved rest. I really think that Alex Ferguson has added a few more wrinkles and lost a few hairs, what with all the things to do. I respect the man.

Also, Berbatov has improved.

*pics from Blackburn match*

I actually don't feel too bad about missing the Halloween party at the Chongs. When I told Sean I couldn't make it, I thought I'd feel quite deprived on the night. And furthermore, Ian was sick. We also planned a sleepover/laugh-till-we-hurt-session/late-night-talk after that because we haven't spent time together in ages, but then I thought better of it and decided I should stay focused on work. Sensible-nya! *halo appears above head and heavenly music plays* This week I am going hardcore with my SAT practice tests. How wonderful. I'm in the 1800-1900s. By the way, I think my brother spends wayy too much time on Facebook playing Uno and Pet Society and Typing Maniac and hacking them. Somebody, anybody, do something!

Yes people, after my SAT I will go anywhere (well, almost anywhere) with you, especially to those I owe or ffk-ed. I think Su-Ann is at the top of my ffk list. Heh. And FYI to some PJ people, KL is so not far away. I like The Gardens and GSC Signature because it's still clean and wide. I like KLCC because there are fascinating metro/homo/trans sexual dudes to see. Okay, sorry, I'm just kidding about the latter. All people are beautiful and special in God's eyes. They and people around them only have to realize and embrace it. Oh but don't get me wrong, I'm not condoning homosexuality either.

It's been drizzling and raining almost continuously. The basketball court down the street is full of puddles; the futsal courts are stained with slippery rain marks. I salute our security guards for sitting out like that through rain or shine. At the moment some blokes somewhere are burning some garbage-smelling thing and polluting the previously fresh and chilly air. Sigh. Some people. And as we Chinese say, "We no eyes see."

This year-end I have decided to do something different. I won't be attending any camps this year, as I have almost every year of my life. I want to do something different. Maybe go on a mission trip, volunteer in some community services, visit the SPCA, go on a roadtrip with buddies like the one during CNY two years ago, do some photography and attend workshops, appreciate nature and spend time with the family by a river somewhere, go hiking and just stand in amusement at the sounds of cicadas; play badminton, futsal and golf; get involved in youth political discussions/meetings available, read up on psychology and literature, attend an overnight prayer meeting at church, attend a court session and a Parliament session, visit the Tugu Negara again, go to Cambodia, go to the park and people-spot or play frisbee with my brother, write a few substantial pieces, get involved in Street Ministry again, get my driving lessons/licence done... The list is endless.

Learning is a lifelong journey, and it goes far beyond the confines of our four walls of church and school. They are where we learn and are taught, and the world is our training and application ground. We must have consistency and discipline to keep up with our Christian growth and not stray when we are outside of those four walls. Thanks Ms. Cath for the thought.

Thank you Jesus. You are good. This week will be an enjoyable and fruitful one.

Love you all. And in the meantime, behave.

xx

I call this revelation

It's actually possible to see the same people everyday and sit in the same class with them but harbor all the wrong perceptions about them. At the moment, I'm having a few conversations with some friends on msn, and I'm realizing so many things I never knew, or bothered to notice, before, and I have to say I'm quite appalled and disappointed in myself.

Individually, people are the way they are not because they really want to be that way, but because of underlying issues and problems. Nobody is born hopeless, stupid, bitchy, stoner, hater, or emo-er. It is always caused by something, and that is usually just a cover up for the person because he or she doesn't want to get hurt again.

I think it's high time for people in general to stop discriminating by looking at the outside, because by making judgments on a person's externalities, one can never know what's going on at the core of a person. How would you know that that person with the mask of hatred has a shattered heart inside that needs to be healed? How would you know what that person is really feeling unless you make an effort to find out, and maybe risk getting an unpleasant response in return? Or how would you know that that person who's always so cheery and helpful is actually putting on a happy display but is hurting and wilting away inside?

HOW WOULD YOU KNOW?

No, you would not know until you take that first step: the first step to say a simple "Hi, ---", to ask how are you, to be patient and understanding and eager to listen to the person. No, I'm not passing this off as an easy thing to do, because I know for sure that it isn't, but let us take on this challenge to really get to know people. You never know how your one smile or encouraging word could turn somebody's day around.

People don't care how much you know until they know how much you care.

This week I have:

1. Filled and signed my application for graduation along with Grace and Weeyen.

2. Heard something so mind-consuming that it got me really confused. I think I've solved it, though.

3. Told certain things to certain people I never thought I'd say. But then again, being frank is one of the things I do. Sometimes, however, I just think I shouldn't have said this or that as it may cause future situations to be awkward, but oh, come what may, the past is past.

4. Learned that time is short. Life is short. I know I've been saying this a kazillion and one times, but I believe it deserves repetition to serve as a reminder to all of us in general. We have one life, so let us live it out with every good purpose that glorifies God.

5. Been told by my oh-so-wonderful administrator/supervisors that I will be emcee-ing for awards night. I was going around school yesterday like a crazy woman, ranting about how I'm shy and how I don't want to do it. Well, now it seems like quite a fun thing to do.

My SAT is next Saturday. Please pray for me. I will appreciate it more than you'll ever know. OH, and before I forget, I must announce that LYDIA CHANG GOT AN SAT SCORE OF 2350 AND A GPA OF 3.9! Okay, just in case some of you don't see the humongous significance of it, let me tell you that a perfect SAT score is 2400 and a perfect GPA is 4. SO SEE FOR YOURSELVES AND START GOING GAGA LIKE I KNOW YOU WILL!

Good morning people, I love you all loads.

xx